It felt so real. I could feel people in my room. Anneka and Aamir and other people but I couldn’t figure out who. Aamir was sitting in my rocking chair thinking to himself. I wanted Anneka to come into my bed to cuddle with me but I was wearing only wearing a t-shirt and underwear (I was dressed exactly as I actually was which contributed to the dream feeling so real). I didn’t actually ask her to look for my shorts but somehow she just knew. She was looking but couldn’t find them. I finally gave in and asked her to come anyway. Forget about my clothes, just come cuddle with me.
I didn’t sleep well last night. I woke up after that dream actually feeling like I wanted to stretch my arms out to get her to come but she wasn’t there. I feel like I woke up a few times feeling that way. I couldn’t fall back to sleep and I decided to text her.
It was one of those moments where I just opened up and let everything go. It’s kind of like in my dream… I want more clothes but they’re just not there and if I want her I have to get over it and be a little bit exposed.
I think my room is like my life… my safe place. My bed is the next layer of my personal space. I want to give her all of the affection. There are so many times during the day that I think “gosh… I wish she could be here right now and closer. I don’t know how to not feel that way.